To understand and except yourself, with all of your foibles.?

I wanted respect, and to be admired for my Qualities, And I have come to the conclusion, after my ping years, Is simply that I am gullible and slow at things and most of all: A comedian to the public, who tease me, and talk over me.I have become, like my mother who was a ter brain, I desperately wanted respect from my colleague's and peers, And now I come to except my self, as I am programed to be. Please give me your thoughts.